Saturday, 26 November 2016

Realization of My True Nature

True nature is your essence, your real self, your spirit, your soul.

It has always existed. It was never born, it will never die, it will always exist. 

It is the divine spark you were born with. 

It is pure. It never changes, and it is always with you.

It is hidden beneath ego, experiences, thoughts and emotions. Like clouds that cover the sky above, when the clouds clear, the blue sky is revealed, it was alway there, it was just obscured by clouds. True nature is obscured but it is always there.

When I was taught meditation, I was introduced to the nature of mind. 

My mind used to race like a chariot pulled by wild horses. I was the charioteer with no control over where my thoughts raced. With meditation practice I learnt to control my thoughts, I tamed the wild horses and steered them in whatever direction I chose for them to go. I became in charge of my mind. 

With more practice I learnt to still my thoughts completely. The true nature of mind is emptiness, without the fluctuations of thoughts and emotions. 

I cleared away ego and I realized the radiance of my true nature. I connected with the purity of the creation of the universe. I connected with the purity of my own essence, my true nature.

In the years since, I have seen my true nature many times. I know it is always with me. I think it's the reason people love to meet me around me around the world, it makes me glow and my heart fill with energy. 

It doesn't judge, it just observes. It is unaffected by what happens in my life, it is unaffected by emotions. 

I had a moment in class on Friday when my thoughts became still, my mind became empty and I focused on my true nature. I saw it as I had seen it many times before. 

Then I had an enlightening moment of realization...Everytime I see my true nature, it always appears the same, it has never changed. 

It was a deeply profound experience to actualize what I was taught and what I teach. It was different to be experiencing it than just to know it. It became wisdom, not knowledge.

I saw that thoughts  and emotions could circle around it, unaffecting it, it just observed them. It has been observing my life since I came into consciousness but nothing has ever affected it, it remains as the pure energy I was born with. 

For the rest of my extrordinarily busy day, I moved easily in and out of true nature, going with the gentle flow of the universe. When I was with people I could carry on as I usually do, when I had me to myself I rested in my true nature, watching the world happening around me, in the moment.

I had a very happy day. I'm glad I had the extra energy of the universe to draw on because I had to do a lot of stuff.